Thank you
I am pleased that you express clearly the doubt about your diagnosis. I struggle too, an imposter syndrome re: Bipolar disorder – surely I would be more obviously aware that I was mad rather than thinking I was unstable and make really bad judgements from time to time? 3 psychiatrists state the same diagnosis but I know that they have communicated with each other so not unbiased.
Every so often I am tempted to stop medication to see if I amok off it but then get scared I might lose the stability that I have currently. I might lose some of the weight tho!